Archive | December, 2011

Waiting in Wonder

18 Dec

Hello baby,

It’s the time of year when we spend much of our time waiting.  We wait in line, we wait for packages to arrive, we wait for a break from work and school, and most importantly we wait for Christ.  Our culture emphasizes instant gratification and when we don’t get what we want right away we get annoyed.  Your own mom has trouble with patience, but when I feel the pressure building up in my head I remind myself that these frustrating situations are temporary and not important in the grand scheme of life.  “This too shall pass” is a bittersweet phrase.  I try to be grateful for the few short moments I have here on earth and remember that they will never happen again.

Waiting for you to arrive is much different than anything I have ever waited for before.  Every time I think about you, I can feel my head and heart literally fill with joy.  Recently I believe you have been moving around quite a bit because I have been feeling tiny little nudges in my abdomen.  I heard your heartbeat again on Friday and am so glad to know you are doing okay in there.  I look forward to your birth, but am also enjoying waiting for your arrival and dreaming about who you will become.

As you know, you were an answer to a prayer.  I asked God, “Do you want me to have children?  Please show me a sign.”  God gave me a very clear sign by changing my negative pregnancy test that night into a positive one to wake up to the next morning.  However, during this Christmas season, I am reminded that God’s intentions are much different than Santa Clause.  God did not give me you because I asked Him for a baby.  God has something else in mind for you other than granting my wishes.

Little baby, I am overjoyed to know that God has great plans for you.  I feel so honored that He has chosen me to be your mother, because God is bringing you into the world for a very special reason.  I am waiting for this reason to be revealed to me.  It is amazing to think that God is placing you on this earth because He wants you here.  Please know that you have a purpose.  Listen for God.  Watch for God.  He will show you the way and love you forever. 


Your mom